“I am a wedding photographer” I have explained to seemingly countless people over the phone recently, to explain my current lack of income, and why I need a deferral or a grant. I say “wedding photographer” because I’ve found that “professional photographer” connotes, for some, that I might have some other thing that I can do to keep the money flowing. I can’t though. I don’t imagine you expect me to explain myself.
I’ve been styling myself “professional photographer” for nearly ten years now. Maybe at the beginning, it was wishful thinking; I do, in fact, remember the first time someone asked me if I was a professional photographer, two months after registering my business, and someone else had given me the sage advice “you’re a professional if you say you are a professional. Only you can decide.” I decided I was. I guess I was feeling confident that day.
I am what I do. So who am I when I can’t do what I want to do, what I’m expected to do, what I rely upon myself to do?
Clearly I’ve begun writing a lot. But otherwise? I dig deep.
Things got weird around here…weeks ago. Thank you to my children.